Hello Ladies-
I haven't posted much on this site, but read it all the time. I'm in a very bad spot right now and thought I would ask for some advice.
I'm in the U.S., will soon be 63, last period 9-10 years ago. I dabbled with HRT a little in the past, but fear of cancer always made me stop. I now know that the early studies were seriously flawed and I feel cheated that maybe my life would have been a little easier if I had started HRT a long time ago.
Perimopause was very hard for me, it's when my anxiety problems started, but I managed to live a fairly normal life, even got married again after 10 years single. Then about 5 years ago, I began to fall apart. It happened slowly but surely – monthly episodes of extreme anxiety, loss of appetite, no energy, fatigue, etc. My doctor and I decided that a low dose of HRT might be helpful, especially since I have osteoporosis. I have half-heartedly used it, I guess that fear is still lurking in the background.
In the last 6 months or so, things have been worse with anxiety off the charts with adrenaline surges so fierce I almost pass out. When I was at the doctor's office 2 weeks ago, I was having surges and my blood pressure had skyrocketed, something like 179/90. She gave me a prescription for metoprolol 100mg, stating that my heart needs a break from working so hard. My blood pressure has normally been in the low 120s/low 70s. I've been using tiny pieces of Xanax to take the edge off (0.25 mg tabs cut into quarters), and usually one prescription for 30 pills will last me over a year. However, lately I've had to double up on the Xanax to calm myself down.
I have read many times on here that a lot of you ladies take beta blockers for anxiety. How exactly does this work? Do you take the beta blocker every day so the anxiety doesn't happen at all or do you take it when you feel the anxiety coming on? I seem to have background anxiety going on all the time nowadays – for absolutely no reason. My doctor told me I could start off taking half a metoprolol as I'm very sensitive to meds.
I have a home BP monitor and now I'm obsessed about what my blood pressure is doing, which just creates more anxiety. I also don't want to take Xanax if I don't have to, so was wondering if the metoprolol would be just as good. Maybe cut the metoprolol into quarters and take a quarter a couple times a day? I'm almost convinced that my high blood pressure is due to anxiety plus a lack of estrogen. I'm also determined to keep using the HRT to see if it may help. Any advice you could give would be greatly appreciated.