Hello, me again!
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I've been on a cream HRT regime for 3 years (almost). I know the compounded creams are not received favourably here, but it seemed to work well for me for a time. I tried patches and they were too strong for me. Anyway, no point going into all the things I've tried at this stage.
But recently I have been suffering much worse moods.
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. Since Christmas probably. I have no idea how I will feel in a few hours time let alone tomorrow. It's impossible to plan anything. My knees and ankles hurt, by feet are sore and now my hips are joining in. I sometimes get sore wrists and shoulders too. I've lost flexibility. I get sore boobs. There's a kind of cyclical nature to this but not an obvious one. At certain times of day I seem to run out of breath so stairs get hard (I had to give up playing my clarinet 6 years ago for lack of breath! and also lost the ability to swim underwater for the same reason. I suspect it's actually a panic reaction rather than actual loss of breath). But my emotional state is bad. The other week I shouted at a man in a car park. Loudly! Actually, I swore at him. He was being a dick, but still, I'm usually polite. It just boiled up inside me and screeched out.
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Sometimes I don't know if I want to scream or cry. My house is a dirty, untidy mess. My business is suffering badly. I can't concentrate or focus or motivate myself. I spend hours just sat in a lump. I work alone and that means I just don't get anything done. If I am with people I pull myself together for a bit and no one would know. But I'm not often able to be with others except my wonderful, marvellous husband. I have no social life. Can't plan it and find it too stressful now.
I also have developed hypothyroidism and I'm struggling to get onto a proper dose of thyroxine. Instead of getting better my numbers are getting worse and any raise in meds makes me feel terrible for days.
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I don't know which condition is causing what. Given my decrepit 80 year old feeling body (I'm just turned 55) and my moods, do you think the HRT is no longer doing it's job?
I am going to see a different HRT doctor next week. I've decided I want a second opinion. I'm hoping she can help with my thyroid too because she is herself hypothyroid.