Hi all I joined the forum today in the hope that someone might be able to help me work out why i feel the way I do and if anyone else as felt this way.
I am 51 yrs old and although not medically confirmed going through the Menopause. I do not want to drag this life story out in fear of boring you all I promise I will try
In the past 10 yrs there as been a lot of loss in my life I lost 2 brothers in their 40's very suddenly two years apart and then my dad got cancer and then my Mum then my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer sadly I lost my wonderful dad in 2015 and then my wonderful mum passed 11 months later
My sister is in her 4th year and is fighting this horrible disease. I have three wonderful daughters who are very supportive and soon to be 4 grandchildren I adore more than anything. I have always been a very happy confident person who suffered slight anxiety through out the years but just recently it feels out of control where everyday challenges me with thoughts i can not control even though I do try.
I have been with my partner for 37 yrs we met when I was 14 and he was 17 and life as had its ups and downs just like most relationships and life in general.We have always gone on holiday together but since he told me he was going away for the first time without me with his mates from work for 5 days for a guys retirement and a guys 50th my anxiety and paranoia have got worse. He lost his mum also nearly a year ago to cancer and I do not think he as really grieved for her she passed from cancer too very suddenly
I think he is going through a midlife crisis too as he wants a new car change of life style and in his words to live life. He is a compulsive Gambler and as been for most of our lives together and I have supported him through many a dark time....But I stayed with him but now I feel he is leaving me behind to find his new life without me ... I feel like he is abandoning me when I need him the most right now.So my moods swings are daily along with Anxiety loss of appetite hot flushes and not knowing where I want to be
I am not an over emotional person but through frustration I cry most days. I have not had a period for over 2 years now but still get all the symptoms which is so frustrating. I hate feeling this way am I just being paranoid and letting my anxiety run away with me.I read menopause can cause anxiety to worsen so I am hoping that is what it is x
Some times being a woman sucks
Thank you reading this post and hope to hear from you all soon x x
Sweetdimples x x