Hello from Holland
I joined the group this morning and have been thinking of how to introduce myself here. I am 54, no children, always was (WAS!!) very outgoing, adventurous and positive. I had my last menstruation 2 years ago and never many issues ... physically. Friends used to predict that I 'd sail through this phase...But I feel that in the last year or so, the whole emotional, psychological effects of MP are catching up on me.
I miss my spirit, my zest for life, my positive confidence that life is full of adventures. I feel "settled"- not just physic ally but mentally.
Having read lots of material about MP, I am now determined (well, trying to be!) to fight this feeling that life is over. I seriously envisage my funeral each night before I finally go to sleep, I carry this sense of "it's soon over-you had your best times" around with me. I am scared of dying, or losing my husband...this air of anxiety is all around me. I don't talk about this a lot, also due to lack of intimate friends here - I want to manage it and be my old self again. That's where the reminiscing comes in. I daydream and miss the past. I travelled a lot and my friends are in different countries...I left the UK, which I love so much, and Brexit and job-choice make it impossible for me to return, which was always the plan!
My situation has not changed but the way I think/feel about it and I put that down to Menopause.
Hopefully I will meet likeminded women in here to connect with for mutual support!
By the way, I am on thyroid tablets as my thyroid was removed when I had cancer 20 years ago. I do not want to take any HR as I react terribly to hormones and want to get through this without. Would appreciate advise on herbal substitutes. Looked into St. John s before but apparently that's not an option due to the thyroid stuff I need to take.
Thank you for reading, would love to connect with women here.
Netsky