Hello, ladies. I've been eavesdropping on you for quite a while and find myself needing to reach out for some help and advice.
A little about me: I'm a 62-year-old woman in the U.S. who hasn't had a period for 9-10 years. I did okay until maybe 4-5 years ago when I started having cyclic PMS-like symptoms, but WAY worse than anything I had when I was younger, even during perimenopause. These episodes seem to come monthly and are completely debilitating. They usually last 4-5 days, then everything goes back to normal.
During these episodes, I have extreme anxiety and cry almost constantly. I can't eat because my stomach is tied in knots …just the thought of any type of food makes me cringe. My usual muscle aches and pains are magnified, I get a slight headache, have mild hot flushes (which I normally don't have), I'm overwhelmed by fear, and feel as if an alien has taken control of my body. I basically exist on Xanax and Pepto-Bismol. I get to the point where I don't want to live anymore, then things gradually get better and I can eat anything I want without problems, the muscle pain settles down a little and I feel pretty good…until the next episode.
I've done some searching on the Internet and actually found posts on other forums by women around my age and older who have the same symptoms – they call them phantom or silent periods, but I haven't seen any research or studies of this phenomenon. I've considered the fact that these episodes may have nothing to do with menopause or hormones, but then why the cyclic nature of them? I've had all sorts of tests and my doctor says I'm the picture of health.
At the present moment, I'm coming out the other end of one of these episodes. This one hit me especially hard and I actually ended up in the emergency department this past Sunday because my stomach hurt so bad and my anxiety was through the roof. I had a CAT scan of my abdomen which showed everything was normal, which was a great relief. I felt pretty good for a couple of days when I had another panic attack and had to resort to taking Xanax. I don't like taking it, but I'm sure glad I have it on hand.
I've tried estrogen and progesterone half-heartedly in the past, but didn't stick with it because the fear of cancer was always in the back of my mind, even though I have no risk factors. The only health issues I have are hypothyroidism, which is being treated, and osteoporosis. I still have all my lady parts. Is it possible that these episodes could be caused by an estrogen surge or an estrogen dip after all these years? Am I going through menopause a second time? My doctor is very open to me using hormones if I want, but I'm afraid that estrogen may make my symptoms worse.
My last serum hormone test in May 2017 showed (postmenopausal reference ranges in parentheses):
Progesterone 0.2 (0.0 - 0.1)
Total Estrogens 142 (<40)
Estradiol 40.2 (<6.0 - 54.7)
Total Testosterone 13 (3 – 41)
Free Testosterone 1.2 (0.0 – 4.2)
I don't put much stock in reference ranges because I realize they are the normal levels in postmenopausal women, not what is optimal. Do you think estrogen would help even out these highs and lows?
I've searched this forum and most of the posts about phantom periods have to do with perimenopause, not 10 years down the road! I just don't get it and wonder if anyone here has gone or is going through this, and what you're doing for it. Thanks in advance from across the pond!