I try to take some comfort in the fact that we are all experiencing the very same things; these awful out of control, swinging emotions and tearful anxiety. I wish there was a local group where I could meet up with women going through the same thing. Somewhere I can moan , cry, laugh manically, dump it all out. I find it hard to ' carry on' as 'normal' with family and friends. Even those closest to me have a tolerance as to how many times I can tell them I feel ' weird'. I end up feeling like I am living this inner anxious life and a fake ' brave face' life , then there is an inner core me narrating it all. If only I could change the channel!