I have been reading posts for a few months to try and reassure myself, but my problems have got more difficult to control so thought I would find the courage to share my journey.
I think I have been peri menopausal for at least 2 years but in December last year things started to change, firstly with what now looking back was an anxiety attack whilst driving , out of nowhere I satarted to get this feeling in my chest followed by a rapid heart rate. I managed to pull over and got my self together after a few minutes and made it home. I got checked out ECG etc all ok.
I tried to carry on but every time I got in the car I had one, after 3 more try's I gave up all over Christmas and just stayed at home, didn't get to see my family. I was annoyed at myself as I felt like I was giving in to the anxiety but I was to fearful to drive and leave my home I guess.
Then in January this year a few weeks after the anxiety attack my periods changed, got so heavy, so many clots and although I was always classed as having heavy periods I could cope and it didn't stop me going out. Well the one in January has changed all that. I have to stay near the bathroom and the first 2 days are awful, so heavy. I get so nauseous, weak and light headed. Once it slows down and stops it then takes me about a week to where I can walk around the block. I am on iron tablets now and my ferritin and HB have gone up,it drops on a monthly basic, to be honest I have only managed 1 tablet per day, but after my last period and speaking to my GP yesterday I'm going to double up.
I was given transexamic acid to try but after 2 days I had a headache like I had not had before and because of family history of strokes and myself at times since my early30's have had migraines and sometimes with Aura, my GP said don't take.
My GP has said a while back for the Mirena Coil, but through my adult life I have not needed contraception medication and also have fibroids so I'm reluctant to try.
I have had some scans this year a cyst was founding March but seems to have disappeared again,
Multiple fibroids 2 quite big. My Gynocologist has tried twice to get me in got an endoscopy this year but I have such bad anxiety I have cancelled it. Blood tests this year I have a raised CA125
and recently HD4 Roma, one part was ok but risk pre menopausal and post menopausal came back high risk. If anyone understands that test please explain as my GP asked me to ask my Gynocologist as that blood test I had to pay for, but my Gynocologist was not good at explaining that test to me, just said I need an Endoscopy!
I'm alone where I am living I moved here to be with my partner and we spilt up early this year and I don't have the strength at the moment to move back to where my family and old friends live
My Mom passed at 52 and I was 19 from we think it was Ovarian cancer, like me Mom did not like doctors etc and when they found the tumours it was too late. So here is me 30 years later writing this never thinking my life would go this way and I would allow myself to be so scared off medical procedures.
I think I have now become fearful of my periods, did any of you ladies have bad periods and how many years did you manage to cope ? Did any of you get to the end of your periods the natural way.?
Also got told in May that I am no where near menopause as my hormones are all normal, yet I feel dreadful for at leasay 3 weeks of the month, brain fog, periods of being off balance, palpitations, a few night swats sporadically. So I'm thinking I am peri menopausal, anyone agree with me?
Sorry for the length of this post, it must be like reading "War and Peace "!!
I think I have reached a point where I have to maybe realise that I need a kind ear, or eyes as such.