I really feel for you roseneath and not having a supportive husband can't be easy, mine tries to understand but he's full of advice, eat healthier, exercise, etc. He doesn't realise I have no motivation whatsoever, that just 'getting through' ach day is enough of a struggle. I too am thinking strongly of taking ads but I'm so afraid of side effects. I did try one a while back (the name escapes me) but I had awful night terrors and felt more anxious, doc said to stick it out but I couldn't. I really hope you feel better on yours , I may go back to doc and try another type because I too am fed up feeling so bad all the time. Keep us posted how you get on I totally get the 'wasting years' feeling, me too. If our eye sight gets bad we wear glassses, hearing we get hearing aid, broken leg crutch so why not something to help us to cope with the emotionl stuff .