Hi there - this is my first post, so I hope I make some sense! I'm 52, my last period was in October 2016 and I'm feeling really grotty. I've just been to the doctor who prescribed Citalopram 10mg. I didn't want to go down the route of anti depressants - I wanted to try and manage by myself. I have been taking St John's Wort and Menopace for some time now, but it's not doing any good anymore (if it ever did in the first place!) I have a history of depression (my father committed suicide 17 years ago and I wasn't very well for a while) so am very aware of my moods and worried that I could end up in the black hole I was back then. I've been feeling very low for a good couple of weeks with no break. Very, very erratic mood swings, emotional like you wouldn't believe and angry, feeling horribly aggressive and incredible anxiety, not to mention disturbed sleep every night. I appreciate these are all 'normal' side effects of a peri-menopausal woman and I was hoping I would be able to manage these by myself without medical intervention, but I can't carry on feeling like this. It's not fair on my (very supportive) husband or my work colleagues. I feel a failure for agreeing to take the Citalopram and am a bit scared of the initial side effects (I'm scared of everything these days!) but I do want to feel 'happy' again. I don't want to go down the route of HRT and my doctor is in agreement with this. I know it's a long road I have in front of me so don't want to resort to HRT unless I absolutely have to. I just feel very alone at the moment and quite insular - and very bloody tearful!