hi
this is my 1st post on here although ive been reading and searching quite a bit.
im 46 nearly 47 and up until about 18 months or so ago i had never heard of perimenopause, i had a huge anxiety attack out of nowhere and it took me ages to be able start to feel normal again. i then read something about peri and omg it was like a lightbulb moment and made a few things make sense.
i havent had many symptoms apart from the anxiety/ low mood, bad sleep, digestion issues, aches in back, shoulders ect, headaches, little bit of dizzyness and a general increase in pms type symptoms although i do find each month often brings something new but my periods are still very regular.
last month i bled after sex twice each time it was only a little bit when i wiped myself and that was it so i went to the docs and she had a look at said i had cervical erosion and thats what was causing the bleed, she said if it wasnt bothering me then to leave it alone and i was happy with this but since my anxiety has got much much worse and now my brain cant stop worrying. then on thursday we had sex and no bleed after which i was pleased about but this morning (saturday) i had a wee and there was a little bit of blood
so this is sending me worrying again.
my anxiety is so high at the min that i cant think straight and im obsessing over this. ive worried that ive had a very slight back ache since last month and sometimes i think i had a tummy ache but then im not sure because my anxiety is so high
. if i do have a tummy ache then if i wasnt anxious im not sure i would take much notice of it as its very small and i wouldnt take anything for it. plus i worry that due to my anxiety im focusing on that area and waiting for any feeling/ twinge/ sensation. i need to try to calm down enough that i can work out the difference between a feeling and a pain (if that makes sense). i do have a slight tummy ache today but im mid month so this is normal for me.
i had my last smear this time last year and it was normal.
ive never had anxiety like this before and i cant think straight and im in tears all the time and not functioning like a normal person. why do i find it so hard to listen to the doc and relax
the doc said that its very common for ladies who have had kids or used birth control and i had just used the mini pill for 3 months to see if it would settle my hormones but it didnt so i stopped using them.
anyone who has cervical erosion or had it what was your bleeding like? was your bleeding the same pattern ie immediately after sex ? or a day or two after ? did your clear up on its own or does it not go away ?
any advice would be wonderful and hopefully help me to calm down a bit.
thanks in advance
xx
forgot to add that ive started keeping a diary of symptoms to see if there is a pattern to any aches ect thru my cycle xx