Hi Yammy1
First of all sorry to hear about your Dad and hope he recovers well.
As for the HRT - it is very unlikely to be the Estradot causing anxiety - after all it is just a dose of estradiol slowly going into your bloodstream. - the same estrogen as the gel - but in a slightly different medium. Also you've been on it 4 weeks so it is not going to suddenly make you feel like that.
From what you say - if you were peri-menopausal when you had your hysterectomy and kept your ovaries - then you may well still be peri-menopausal and therefore your own cycle is kicking in and causing the hormonal fluctuations (as with many women during the menopausal transition) - and this is what you are experiencing and reacting to, as well of course, Christmas, upcoming holiday, family stresses etc. Without the regular bleed it is difficult to attribute your feelings to one particular point in your cycle - but personally I would not stop the HRT - depending on why you were given it and where in peri-menopause you were when you started. Of course, the aim is to feel better overall on HRt than off it , but a few days blip here and there are only to be expected - do keep a diary of your moods etc and see if a trend emerges and whether it depends on external events?
I would put that patch back on - well at least half a patch to start with. You don't want to experience a resurgence of symptoms on holiday, nor to have to go through a period of adjustment while your body gets used to it again. I've just looked up what Xanax is - and I would say better the HRT than those!!!
Hope you are feeling better yourself
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Hurdity x