Hi ladies,
Just found this site
I feel like a total mess
I'm 42 and 2 years ago I started having panic attacks out of nowhere, I was getting anxiety and depression too. I was diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder and tried to put on pills but in the end did 12 weeks of counseling. I seemed to feel a bit better after but then this last year and especially the last few months I'm getting worse again
I honestly only feel normal about 1 week a month now, I get terrible PMS, awful anger at ovulation and pains.
I'm mood swinging between crying, anger, irritable, depressed and exhaustion and not sleeping properly. My periods still only last about 3 days as always but they have dropped from 28 days to 26 to 25 and now this last month it was 30 days. They are painful and big blood clots and heavy
I'm hot all the time, especially at night and I do wake up sweating some nights but I don't think I'm getting your typical hot flushes
I have been reading up on perimenopause the last 2 years as was sure thats why the anxiety started 2 years ago but GP's said I was too young and my blood tests were normal, although ive since learnt they are unreliable any due to fluctuating hormones
I feel like I'm going crazy......my personality has changed. I'm really worried about my marriage, husband is getting sick of me and my moods and lack of sex drive most weeks, but I'm so tired by 9PM.
He is taking it all personally when I'm moody or quiet, and its causing problems now...I love him so much but he's very insecure and I'm being sensitive, what I really need is extra hugs and reassuring but all I'm getting is him being pissed off with me
My 7 year old has to put up with me being irritable and snappy too, I hate myself that I'm being like it and cry my eyes out on my own
I don't use contraception because hubby had the snip so I don't know if the mini pill would help? Everything ive read sounds like my estrogen is too high maybe due to low progesterone?? I'm scared of hrt and risks...I'm overweight by about 5 stone now as ive gained all my weight I lost a few years ago, I'm just so miserable and dreading having years of this still to come
Oh the other symptom I forgot to mention is dizziness at certain times of the month, usually before ovulation and periods