Meno male said ". I'll be in constant watch mode to promptly address any change on my body/mind that could mean something is going wrong. I'll keep in mind that there are side effects and that it takes a while as my body adjusts itself to the hormonal change'
That's how I am now, constantly checking my breasts, looking for change, feeling for lumps, it's crazy health anxiety, stirred by this bloody latest scare!
And any change, once it's there would be too late do anything to prevent it.
I feel damned if I stay on it, and damned if I come off it!… feel like screaming, it took me so long to feel ok about trying HRT, and when I first went on it, I bent the poor ears of dancin girl and Hurdity with my anxiety and worries, the NICE report made me feel more at ease, and the improvements from using HRT made me very emotional at first, a feeling of what I had been depriving myself of, a return to feeling a lot more ME!
And now this!! I could and do cry over the worry it has caused, when are we going to feel it's ok? When are we ever going to be given the full picture, not bits here and there, not one year one story, next year another? We are being used as Guinea pigs, no one seems to know, seems like it's a battle between oncologists and gynaecologists.
This roller coaster has to stop, my brain can't cope with all the complicated statistics and trial figures, informed choice my arse! (Sorry) I made an 'informed choice' so I thought, last year, now the information has changed, yet again!… just feeling so confused, and at the moment every time I rub in my oestrogel, or think of the progestogen from my mirena coil, I feel like a time bomb
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