Hi everyone
This is my first post here, I've lurked for a while but never been brave enough to post!
I'm 44 and am starting to really suffer dreadful symptoms that I believe to be menopause related. My GP gives me pretty short-shrift to be honest, despite suffering very specific symptoms for a while which met all the ovarian cancer "indicators"....a locum GP finally took notice of them and referred me, so I'm currently going through the whole range of tests, have high CA125 levels, but negative ultrasound, last week I had a CT scan and am awaiting results.
Besides that (which is bad enough!) I have developed crippling anxiety 😢. This started with the fear of cancer but has now focussed in on my palpitations and dizziness which are everyday symptoms for me. I feel jerky, trembly, dizzy, utterly exhausted and horribly emotional. I panic about everything now, loud noises, car journeys, baby animals on tv (😂), absolutely everything. I've had numerous people listen to my heart and numerous ECGs, and have been told it's perfectly normal, but I can't get a grip on that. I'm convinced I'm dying.
I take every vitamin and mineral going, have been given beta blockers to take when it's really bad, but I just feel like I want to curl up in a ball and sleep for a year. I don't have much of a support network, no close family around, so I really am facing this alone. My partner is not terribly understanding, I might get a cursory pat on the back and a "there there", but nothing like the love and reassurance I need.
Am I normal? Am I losing the plot?
I'd appreciate any kind words any of you may have to offer me. Is anyone going through a similar situation?
Amber xx
Ohhh Amber my love
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you are normal, what you are experiencing is experienced by some unfortunate women who have a make up that means their peri meno period can be difficult. Mines not too great, I had it for five years before I realised what it was, I blamed medication I was on at the time.
As soon as I got through the trial-and-errors of trying out hrt's and assessing doses, I got on the right dose and its helped loads.
I'm going through something similar to your results wait, I'm going for further tests, but I already know the outcome will be good, due to factors around my situation which have been brought to my attention by the very helpful ladies in my mammogram post.
Then there's the cysts worry, I hope that turns out normal, you know the nhs, they have to be 'belt and braces' make sure they are more than 100% sure, just like my mammo, I haven't got a cancerous cell in my body, I know it.
I wish you all the luck in the world andn I hate waiting, it can bring on panic and trigger me. I feel so fragile anyway, and waiting tenses everything up, making me feel totally angry but drained.