One week I can almost feel normal - as in not thinking bad/negative thoughts all the time, always fearing some health issue & going back over things in the past ...Then it all comes again and I get into a cycle of anxiety and fearing all bad things ...will be 55 this year and just sometimes struggle to see any future ..
Booboo, I understand how you feel.
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I was exactly the same, exactly, late last year and earlier this year.
I was in a very dark place with all you describe above plus also insomnia and paranoia (basically that people don't like me, both strangers and people I knew. I can see how irrational that was now but at the time I was CONVINCED)
I don't know if you're on HRT?
I eventually took myself in a sobbing heap to the GP and after researching I asked for estrogel so that I could up my oestrogen to see if that helped.
I also asked for small dose of older AD for the sleep issues.
Long story short, I ditched my 2mg oestrogen tablets and switched to 3 pumps of gel and I am much much better!
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If you are on HRT could you up your oestrogen , just to see if it helps? If not on HRT could you be persuaded to try?
My negative feelings have gone. I still get little bearable blips as I am still in perimenopause but all in all much better.