Well, Coldethyl, as I've finally got my head above water most days, I'm starting to be able to pick apart what to ignore and what's really bothersome. As for the mental parts, at this point what's bothering most is that I can't multitask at all. I'm usually fine if I can get myself into a task undisturbed. I can't sit at a table where multiple conversations are going on. I can't handle two people talking to me at once. I can't carry on a conversation while I'm cooking dinner. My brain just can't do it anymore. I can't shop with my children. Gosh, I can't even drive with my kids because it's too distracting. And when I have to deal with these situations, my anxiety goes through the roof. I read an e-book from Amazon, I can't recall the name of it (of course) that attributed the multitasking thing to estrogen. I'm trying to decide if I should ask for more estrogen, or if it gets better with time. If it should improve, I'd rather not bump my estrogen as eventually I'll have to decrease it again.
Most of the physical things I'm ignoring now. They're annoying, but it's natural for me to ignore nagging aches and pains. I'm stupidly stubborn with pain, often to the amazement of my doctors and when I should have sought help (shingles, a snake bite, and a burst ovarian cyst come to mind). I also think other women are going through it but it's too big for words. I have one friend that has had our problems, and we rarely get into discussing it beyond saying it's awful. She "goes down in her back" quite often, and for years I really thought she had major back issues, but she would be absolutely fine other times. Now that I've caught up with (and maybe surpassed) her, I know that being in bed down in her back for days probably had nothing to do with her back. And in hindsight, I remember my grandmother, my mother, and an aunt being "down in her back" all the time, that or migraines. I guess we should pick a more socially acceptable ailment than menopause to blame!