Hi Briony
I see her next week. I am counting the days. Though, being me, I am now panicking that she won't be able to help me, and then what the Hell do I do? Stupid I know.
It's funny you should mention poor absorption from patches, as I was just wondering this. Last summer, when using 50mg patches, I was getting just over half the month feeling fine. But was my own oestrogen just higher then?
When I started the BCP, which is much higher oestrogen (plus it shuts down your own cycle) I felt better overall, I think, compared to patches. But got constant spotting on Microgynon. So swapped to Marvelon and felt fantastic until I finished the first pack and had that very short break. Even quickly starting the second pack didn't help, and that was likely due to a build up of progesterone? But overall I think I needed the stronger oestrogen and having it orally was fine.
Same with Femoston, though taking it orally did give me nausea. But I couldn't bear the progesterone. Plus I wonder if my own oestrogen is now lower than last summer so the oestrogen in 1/10 and 2/10 wasn't enough anymore? And now, back on a 50mg patch it just feels like I'm not wearing one.
Like you say, mood very flat and this nagging anxiety either sitting on my chest or lurking at my shoulder. Plus the bloody insomnia of course. And physically I feel differently. Appetite less. Boobs shrunk and unresponsive. Stomach not bloated anymore. Slighter drier 'down below' and this hoarse voice. All this indicates lowering oestrogen to me, despite my 50mg patch?