Thanks so much for the responses- I really appreciate them. I still quite "wobbly" but do feel a little bit better today- had better night's sleep which always helps.
CLKD: the doctor suggested no more than two weeks for tapering off- I've only been on citalopram 40mg for about 2.5 months- in fact, my friend came off same amount citalopram and commenced venlafaxine in the space of 4 days- different doctors do different things, I guess!
ANNA123: sorry you had to come off the HRT and interesting that you were taking the dual therapy- i'm glad your emotions are stable on the cit- do u think u have underlying depression or has this all come about with the menopause? i know i'm a bit resistant to ADs but I'm sure if the venlafaxine works for me, i won't have an issue taking it! i can't claim to be a stranger to ADs- i've been on citalopram for some years but i was only on 10mg and was hoping to come off such a small amount...but then perimenopause hits and clearly i need them! i will def think about dr currie.
HURDITY: yes my feeling is that this is out of my normal scope of emotions- the hormones are most def responsible for the dreadful way i feel- however, i have had episodic depression and anxiety throughout adult life so i'm obviously susceptible- it's just i realise now that during those times i wasn't "so" bad- with treatmet i could socialise, hold down job etc. i guess if something gets me thru the meno-which could last years- then fair play but i do worry about coming off ADs at the other end- but the present is more important than what might happen, i guess. i have tried qlaira and felt dreadful! it's ridiculous but i just cannot handle hormones- i was on the pill in my 20s- no probs- hell, i was on cerazette in my 30s and no way could i handle that now! i will pursue the hormonal route but i'll get myself happy first of all on ADs and then perhaps i can weather the initial difficult bits of hormone treatment. Thank you all so much x