I found this site on Saturday after the most horrendous night ever. Ladies I have to thank you all, I've discovered that I'm not losing my mind, I am in fact "normal"!!
I'd been on hrt (Elleste Duet 1mg) for 16 months and all was well and under control. I came off it 4 months ago and all was still well, better in fact as I've not had a period since Sept. My peri symptoms consisted of flushes, sweats, irregular periods, irritability& irrational thoughts. I didn't know it could get so much worse.
At Christmas I became very weepy and felt I wasn't needed or wanted by my family anymore. I felt insignificant. I put it down to the pressure of Christmas. Last week I started to feel the same way again and realised it was a month since my last bout of crying. On Friday I broke down at my friend's house and Friday night I had the worst night sweat ever, my whole body was soaked, I'd only ever had head sweats before. I couldn't sleep, my shoulders were aching for no reason, my skin felt ****ly. 3 or 4 times over the past week I've got up during the night and been sick. I cry at the drop of a hat, it feels much the same as the baby blues, not like grief or bereavement, just inconsolably sad.
On Monday I was having palpitations at work followed by a panic attack. I've never had either before, it was very scary. I've been on the verge of tears all day every day at work and today they just flowed, I felt such a wuss. Hometime couldn't come quickly enough. I cried all the way home in the car.
I went to see my GP this evening and we had a long chat. We discussed my options and have decided on going back on hrt. I think having a bleed every month is a small price to pay if it means my life will get back on track.
I told my GP that I'd found you and she said "Menopause Matters is one of the better sites with a lot of very helpful information."
Thank you all so much, you have been a real comfort and support to me over the last few days, you've really helped me through the most distressing time.
