Hi Hurdity
Sorry for confusing you, I confuse myself often! When i took F1/10 initially nearly 2 years ago, it sorted the flushes and mild anxiety I suffered with. Unfortunately it gave my pmt which I hadn't had for a long time, so I stopped taking it. I tried again a few months later and the same happened.
A year later, I started F1/10 again as anxiety was bad, but this time the F1/10 didn't seem to help, so I then increased to F2/10 for 2 months. I had really bad symptoms, such as confusion, spaced out feelings, insomnia and it never got any better. Then due to my iron levels being really low, and had unexpected bleeding, my GP pulled me off it. I suppose from the patches, I am expecting more help with my anxiety and mood. Not sure if I am expecting too much though.
It helps to know that crying is okay! My family seem to be disappointed with me that despite being on AD's, I'm still crying. For me it feels positive, because I am getting things off my chest and am able to show emotion whilst on AD's.
For now, I have decided to step off HRT to see where my cycle is. At that stage, I'll start the patches, I hope that giving myself a month to 6 weeks off will be okay.
Sometimes - this whole anxiety/depression feels so final, as though this is how it will be forever but I suppose depression makes you feel like that.
LO - is little one as in my little 5 year old.
I'm 44 and miss 4/5 periods a year from September/October and have done since 2010. My FSH was over 35, 2 years ago.