Thanks TropicalVon69 - it is such hard work being a parent when we feel like this, isn't it? My husband was signalling to me to stay calm last night & this morning because if my son sees I am getting stressed, he gets worse too. Everything gets bottled up & I break down in tears afterwards but sometimes it all becomes too much & I end up snapping at my son, and, like you, feel wretched afterwards. However, I am sure we are not alone in feeling like this. I don't know how my husband manages to stay calm whilst all this is going on but I suspect it is because he feels he has to which isn't fair on him. He needed a beer after our son was agitated last night!
Yes, I think my friend has been very busy but I am beginning to think our lives have been going in different directions for some time now. We have never 'lived in each others pockets' but something feels different. She became a grandmother 2 years ago & I expected her to be busy with helping to look after her grandson - that's only natural (and that didn't bother me) but I feel as if we have 'drifted' of late & she has moved on after having different jobs & forming new friendships. She will have another grandchild anytime now so she will be even busier - I think it is time to 'let go' & concentrate on trying to fill my life with new things to do as all of that has fallen by the wayside in recent years (coinciding with becoming perimenpausal - everything feels like a major effort; even going to the shops!).
Well done for wanting to go swimming - I keep thinking about it but haven't done it yet! Maybe, with the extra time I will have during the week, I should make the effort to take up some form of exercise that doesn't irritate the waterworks! (That's another story!). I hope you have a lovely day with your dad xxx
Ps. Our friends may not be there for us but this forum is a lifeline for women like us & we can 'vent' & support each other on here.
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