Pepperminty, so sorry to hear this. It's a horrible place to be, made worse if you're alone. So glad your boyfriend's able to see you this evening.
You must be ultra sensitive to the estrogen. I wonder if it's the fluctuations your body doesnt like, or the estrogen per se? I think with me, it's any form of fluctuation - up or down - that sets things awry. If that is the case, then you should feel better v soon ... if you can stand the time in between? Alternatively, have you ever tried a patch? It would be less potent than the synthetic estrogen in Mercilon.
Your nurse sounds as helpful as a chocolate tea pot. High and low estrogen can both cause anxiety - as ladies' experiences on here frequently demonstrate. The fact yours goes crazy when levels change suggests you're sensitive to the fluctuations rather than it being an external cause, unconnected to hormones. She was all you needed today! If you're stuck, have you considered either emailing Dr Currie or else going to your local FPC? They were so helpful when I went for advice regarding the pill and peri menopause a while back.
Anyway, pointless me asking you questions at this moment. If you're anything like me, then simply logging on will be an ordeal when you feel like this, let alone having to function enough to create a coherent response!
Just wanted you to know that - like the others here - I am thinking of you.
B xxx
