Hi well sat in bed as if sleep was an alien concept, moved by your experience of anxiety, 6 years ago I started waking with a racing heart, butterflies, stomach aching with the acid of anxiety, and then followed best part of 5 years of waking at 3 am every night, same again, dog tired next day, work all but wrecked with hot flushes every 20 min, creeping panic, tearfulness, madness! I thought my heart would give out and I told myself it was just the menopause.... but that's hard when your mind is exhausted and you can't keep emotionally level. HRT for 6 months switched off the symptoms , so it was a way to tell that it was M and not a breakdown, but I didn't want to be dependent on it or prescription drugs. Slogged through without, and felt crap, so if the scientists find a way of injecting eggs back into your system girls.. go for it! Like your use of mindfulness and CBT, exercise is good too, and keeping cool. Trouble with these emotional symptoms is the way it is a runaway feedback to more anxiety to the point that I wondered if I could cope with life generally. The only good thing is that the symptoms have released their grip and I only have milder attacks. If this is how it goes for those of us who have such an experience then that is the chink of light at the end of a very long tunnel. Work and partners would benefit from more knowledge and am surprised by how much taboo here still is. Sadly I saw my mother crazy as a bat at night go through this - had no idea what caused it and saw her marriage nose dive. So whatever gets you through the night hey.. good luck, it will get better, now where's that boring novel...
