Thank you bright light and Marf, I am trying to be logical about it, and I am ok at times, it's just whenever there are tests involved, I get myself in a spiral of anxiety, the feeling they are looking for something sinister, just sends me into meltdown.
In my logical mind, I feel it's more likely to be muscle related, it comes and goes, it does seem worse when I'm not active, and often wake in the morning with the ache from sleeping, so now questioning my mattress
I don't know how I will react if my blood results show elevated ca125 levels, I will have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
CLKD I have have spoken to my husband about my fears, he is very supportive and is trying his best to understand my journey through the hell that is menopause, he also knows what an insane worrier I am, and how I think every health concern indicates that I must have cancer
My husband had very similar symptoms several years ago, and had ultra sound scan etc, all clear and nothing to worry about. Hoping mine is the same.
It's that horrible scenario where I need to know, but don't want to know unless it's nothing, then I will be fine, but dont want or know how to face it if it's not ok