So I found out today that I didn't get the job I went for interview for on Thursday. I wasn't surprised as I made a complete hash of the test prior to the interview (so I've put it down in the category of useful experiences to learn from).
However, I decided that it was about time I pushed myself a little bit out of my comfort zone and I needed some trousers as all my size 12's are hanging off me and it was awkward at the interview as there was only 1 pair of trousers that I could wear where the waistline stayed sufficiently up so that the trousers didn't fall off
![Embarrassed :-[](https://www.menopausematters.co.uk/forum/Smileys/extended/embarrassed.gif)
So I caught a train to a town an hour away from where I live, went to M & S and bought 2 pairs of size 8 trousers in their sale. They are still hanging off me a bit but not nearly as much as the size 12's I have in my wardrobe!
It felt a bit scary going out and doing this but I figured that if I want to get on a plane to Canada sometime in July then I need to start doing more things now ... so I did and my nervous system didn't go kaput or anything and I feel okay (bit tired but that's all).
It's made me feel a bit more optimistic ... I still don't know when I will feel 'better' from the breakdown I had in March but to be able to do something like I did today felt like a good step to doing more ..
Out of interest, if anyone who's had a breakdown can give me any sense of when there were able to take more steps to do things? - please post. I think what has put me off up till now is just being scared that if I push myself, my nervous system is going to overload and I'll have another breakdown - so it's been hard to judge when or if to do things.
BTW I am thinking of making a trip to London UK soon (that's a 2 hour train journey I think) to see how I handle that ...
Also, I am trying to do more yoga - I came across this lovely post recently and it gave me more hope - I wasn't as ill as she was and yet she has managed to heal herself:
http://theyogalunchbox.co.nz/yoga-can-help-heal-mental-illness-big-time/