Yes definitely, intrusive thoughts that I just can't stop - so know what you mean, morbidity, dread. I imagine the worst possible things as well, in the night, when I've been woken by a night sweat / adrenaline surge. It's got so much worse since my lovely Mum died last year, it was traumatic (and one of the worst possible things, for real) - now her poor little dog is so ill. It has changed my awareness in a way that I can't change back and I find myself so much more anxious and dithery since then. OH tells me that we all have to try and come to terms with reality / the mortality of every living creature, the cycle of life, be more philosophical about it - just can't get my head around it.
Somehow I manage to drag myself out of the dark thoughts - but it takes a lot of effort and distraction.
"Thoughts like that need to remain unthought if you see what I mean." So true. I wish I knew how to keep a lid on them - really do understand your fear thoughts HB.
Night_Owl
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