Honeybun I hate tests too! Honestly, until I went into the meno, I wouldn't go near a doc, as I'm frightened of everything as well. I really appreciated your response, as I really need people to tell me to pull myself together and accept what I've been told. Equally, Sparkle is on the same page as me as well, I will probably worry everytime I see blood in the toilet, if it's piles or something more in the future if I don 't have it done. CLKD, I went the loo this morning and when I saw blood I just repeated in my head what the doc said: 'You have a cut at 5 o'clock and at 7 o'clock' (Apparently they see the inside of a bum as a clockface haha). I feel really calm at the moment and I'm just going to allow my body to heal, accept that there will be blood until it heals and wait until I go back my GP next week and see about the referral. Although, I'm not sure if the A and E doc has already written to the doc and suggested this anyway, as he seemed quite adamant that I have it done and get rid of all the piles I have.