"As I am a homeowner, none of the support workers can help. .. "
: support isn't connected to being a home owner. I used NHS mental health facilities and had a Community Psychiatric Nurse, however, that support was cut under the Labour Government. He wasn't a lot of use anyway, not his fault, he simply had no idea of how the phobia controlled my Life. He'd read the book
The MIND Charity will help. Chatting to people in similar situations can be helpful. On your 'better' days you may find that helping locally will give you a sense of purpose. Do contact them to see what help they need. Sometimes it helps to be with others in a like situation, however, I never found it so. I wanted to be with people who could help with emotional support which I didn't get from my Mother.
I found making lists useful
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Hi CKLD
Sorry for the confusion, I mean, none of the support workers can help with the housing issues.
I do go to our local MIND sometimes, but only when I can motivate myself.
I am so depressed, I can't get out of my chair even on some sunny days.
It is not all meno related, it is some non meno issues too.
I'm sorry that you didn't get emotional support from your mother.
I am considering cutting off contact with my mother again, if I don't get an ADHD diagnosis, as depression can be part of ADHD.
My mother is at the root of my depression, she knows this but doesn't care.
When I was born, I was immediately taken away from my mother to be given oxygen, and as far as I know, the first few seconds of life is important when bonding.
My mum said we never bonded.
She has always treated me bad and spoken to me badly but I blame myself for not leaving home till 25, she got worse with me as she got older. She knows this, but, again, does not care.
I live 300 miles away from her, I would rather sleep under a bridge than go back and live with her.
Our relationship is false, I cut off contact for 7 years and wish I had not re established contact. It is something I really regret and I feel really false for doing it.
I might just say I need to cut off contact because while we are in contact it is costing me my self esteem.