So sorry to hear you feeling awful. It will be alright. I know that sounds inane but it is the fear itself that is so debilitating. As all of the others have said, this depression is organic, caused by hormone depletion. I found it really hard to accept. Still do at times, but I have to keep reminding myself that it is just that. After being a full on career firebrand my whole life, I find that I am like a little hermit crab who just wants to hide in my kitchen. This has literally happened in the space of 6 months.
My family are all dynamic, hardworking people and at times I have felt like a burden to them - but that is just me projecting my anxiety onto them. They don't feel that way about me. Acceptance is the key for me. I just have to accept that this is how I am for the present time, and go with it. Others have said that they feel lonely and I do too at times, but I just try and keep busy, setting tiny goals each day - even if its just paying a bill or writing a journal entry, or ironing my daughters school uniform.I just have to keep reminding myself that it is hormonal imbalance that is making me feel this fear and anxiety and it really helps to know that others are so understanding.
Hugs
Sally