Well another month has passed, and I am no nearer getting a revised prescription for HRT from my consultant. I have left 3 messages and actually written to her personally c/o the menopause clinic. But I have heard nothing back as yet
For those who don't know, I have been suffering with cyclical anxiety and depression linked to my menstrual cycle for over a year and it's really nasty. I get a couple of weeks where I feel great then I start getting random anxiety and really low mood dips and feelings of impending doom
My consultant offered me oestrogen patches with separate progesterone feedback, which I initially turned down (I was stupid, I know). Then I changed my mind after an anxious Xmas but had to see a locum at the clinic as my consultant was ill. The locum was useless and prescribed me Evorel Conti which my consultant had specifically advised against taking as I don't tolerate progesterone well.
But my symptoms have just gone completely topsey turvy. For the second month in a row I have felt very anxious with feelings of doom and dread 'when I'm ovulating'. This is so abnormal as ovulation is always my best time of the month. But for the second ovulation in a row I have just suffered two horribly anxious days and felt exhausted and sleepy. Woke up today feeling fine again with lots of energy.
I don't know what is happening with my body? I just don't. I'm so sick to death of this roller coaster. Do any of you clever ladies know why my symptoms have switched so dramatically? Why is ovulation suddenly making me feel so awful?
When I ovulated last month it was exactly the same, the anxiety and the exhaustion. Then it passed. Then I had a really bad mood dip on Day 21 of my cycle and I thought 'Oh here we go, my PMS on steroids has arrived' except it didn't. Within 24 hours the dip passed and then I felt GREAT. And carried on feeling great right up to when my period started and beyond and I carried on feeling great until I ovulated this month.
I have an appointment to see my GP next week to see if he can prescribe me HRT in the interim as my next appointment with my consultant isn't until May.
It seems a shame to take HRT when I only suffer with these symptoms on certain days of the month but my 'bad' days are just so nasty and I am conscious that I will never get these 'bad' days back. I just endure them and pray for the day to end. And even when I am having a 'good' day at the back of my mind I am dreading the next 'bad' day. And I can't really look forward to anything because I have no guarantee of how I will feel on that day.