Hello Amanda - glad you have found this site.
I spent several months terrified I was losing my mind, as I suddenly started suffering from inexplicable feelings of anxiety and dread. In just a few weeks I was transformed from being Mrs Bright & Breezy to a wretched creature who was suddenly scared of the dark and unable to be left alone.
It was sheer Hell that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy
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My GP kept insisting I was just suffering with regular anxiety and depression. So I spent 8 months on anti depressants which helped but stopped me feeling like 'me' anymore. So I stopped taking them last Summer.
NOTHING in my life had changed, so it didn't make any sense that I was suddenly struggling with anxiety and mood swings
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Then I slowly realised that my mood swings/anxiety were evolving into a vague pattern. A couple of 'good' weeks, followed by a week of feeling quite flat, followed by several days of feeling absolutely wretched. I also noticed my periods were now much lighter, and my cycle was shorter.
I had always suffered with PMS but didn't realise that PMS symptoms can't get truly extreme in the peri menopause. I found this site, and read Professor John Studd's website and had a light blub moment. I wasn't losing my mind. My hormones were totally to blame.
Just knowing there was a specific, physiological 'reason' made me feel so much better. And it really helped to read other women's stories on here, because their stories were so similar to mine.