Hi Ladies
Another of my moaning posts, but I think my family have had enough of it and I really need to get all this off my chest again. I Feel Awful! Just to re-cap, I'm 44, been peri for a few years and the hot flushes and night sweats started last year but once my periods returned, in a fashion, they went. Main symptom, obsession, now is my boobs. They have gone so big and feel like a couple of balloons. They are sore on and off and I keep thinking there must be something wrong. I know I have fibrocystic breasts because they are very lumpy but I keep thinking I have something serious, as I have trawled all the posts on here and hardly anyone mentions boobs as a main problem in the meno or peri. I have dreadful thoughts and all I keep thinking is about what someone told me, and that was: If you make it through your forties, your more likely to make it to old age... and It's like, never a truer word spoken! I have become totally manic to the point I am planning everything in extra advance all the time, even down to my daughter is going for a sleepover tomorrow and I have had her bag prepared since Monday,,, what the hell is all that about. I have had my presents for Xmas wrapped since October... this isn't me, I use to do everything at the last minute... nothing prepared in advance, lived life in the moment. I keep asking myself, why am I doing this and all I can think is maybe I think something is going to happen to me and that's why I need to be so prepared... does this make any sense to any of you ladies? Or, is it just me? I just want these horrible symptoms and feelings to end. I don't take HRT and I never will, just the way I am. But, if there are any ladies on here that are now out the other side and have been like this, please give me your advice.