Hi Lisa
I posted further up the thread quite a few months ago, before trying HRT myself.
Just wanted to let you know that I am now into my 5th week of HRT and I can't tell you how much better I feel already. I feel like all my inner lights have been switched back on. I am joking with my husband again and messing about with my children. My libido has returned much to my husband's delight
I feel optimistic and positive about my life. I feel like me again
I just wish that I had started taking HRT a year ago. Then I wouldn't have suffered needlessly so much. I essentially lost a whole year of my life to feeling anxious, depressed, morbid and hopeless. It wasn't a life, it was just a miserable, wretched existence. I just couldn't continue that way, I was so utterly miserable most of the time. I was living with a genuine mental illness caused by my bloody hormones.
If someone was suffering with a mental illness and were told that they could chose between suffering with it for the rest of their lives and feeling wretched, or taking a pill which would make it go away. Then I am sure that 99% would take the pill. Even if it meant there was a very small chance of cancer a couple of decades down the line.
But because menopause is supposedly 'natural' I think that subconsciously we think we should just endure it. I find this frankly bizarre as migraines are 'natural' but we don't just endure them. Thrush is 'natural' and we could simply not treat it and live in great discomfort and misery for years and years. But if you knew someone had had thrush for months/years and were wretched with discomfort but were refusing to get it treated, you'd think they were either insane or a masochist? Even if the thrush treatment came with a 2% higher risk of getting cancer years down the line.
It's everyone's personal choice whether to take HRT. But I can only assume that the women who chose not to, based on the tiny chance of getting cancer, simply can't actually feel THAT bad. I have felt so anxious and despairing at times that I would have taken anything to stop the misery. Anything at all. Even if it came with a higher cancer risk than HRT. Because I was reaching the point where I was starting to realise that actually being dead was preferable to feeling so horribly low and panic striken most of the time.
I am only 44, and as I understand it the risks of any type of cancer don't appear until after you turn 60 anyway? I also understand that I run a far higher risk of getting cancer from being over weight and drinking alcohol every day, rather than from taking HRT?
Well, I rarely drink and I am not remotely overweight. I think I'm pretty safe