Hi all,
Thanks so much for your great advice and words of kindness. I tried to sign in to MM on my phone whilst I was there and feeling panicked but password didn't work!
Anyway, I stayed till the very end so another triumph over anxiety (with the aid of 3 x 2.5mg of valium!!)
Drive was fine, walking in was fine, only when in the centre of things and the cacophony of thumping music, shouting, hoards of people did I feel overwhelmed and retreated as fast as I could to a quieter spot whilst we ate our picnic. With a full belly and a top up of valium we tried again! Can't say that at points I didn't think...I want to go home, but recognising them as anxious thoughts, I shoved them to one side and carried on.
So overall I really enjoyed the day and as I am in a really dodgy phase atm, I feel pretty chuffed with my achievement.
On the inside of my hand I had written: I am brave, I have a lot of strength, I can get through this...and it certainly helped to have a sneaky peak when necessary.
So please take this as a personal thank you to all of you - the mindfulness, rescue remedy, breathing exercises, not putting pressure on myself to stay and so on...all taken on board . xxx