FIRSTLY : have one of these :big hug:
Depression causes guilt. I have a 22 month cyclic depressive illness so have to take a low-maintenance AD for Life. Took some acceptance
You feel bad because you have had shocks in recent years! Shock of diagnosis, ovarian cancer is known as the 'silent killer' so you did well to have symptoms recognised early enough. Don't be hard on yourself, you then underwent hysterectomy which is another shock to deal with. Also dealing with the feelings of others: I often found I had to be 'brave' for them when I really wanted to wallow
(breast treatment 1995). I was OK whilst going through treatment, then my support group disappeared and depression set in.
You feel bad because you have been pitched into menopause
with all it's associated problems but we do manage to have a giggle here
……… we even have a 'funny' room …..
Have a browse of the menus, left of screen. Take a list of how you feel to your next appt.. Take your husband with you!
I found that once I had taken an AD it didn't work if I went back onto it. The brain kind of got used to it and needed an extra boost from another type.
Have you been in contact with the UK-based charity 'ovacome? …….. that's how I landed here
Keeping a food and mood diary can help too! Let us know how you get on!