Many thanks for all of your help. As I sit here typing this, words not flowing as per usual. I do feel like I am facing an abyss, low is not the word. I could rattle on about myself however I realise that reading your posts we all seem to be "struggling/being tested" in pretty much the same way. (although you all seem to have done something sensible re. treatment) I do take the point however that HRT may help, but my doctor just seems to think AD's are a good thing, and given the way I am thinking right now she may well have a point.
I have never felt quite this low in all my life, but I have come to the conclusion at 51, that we tend to look at where we are in life and sigh(understatement of the year) - a big part of the problem. Trouble is as I have recently realised it's being positive enough to change things..just getting enough energy and stop bashing ourselves over the head etc. which is where Ad's may help.
My rambling post aside, I thank you for all your help with this and just hope that you are all well! Apologies for post, I know we are all going through same thing (near enough!)
LFS