I'm sorry to hear about how your lead nurse is making you feel.
Best wishes to you for your consultation today. Maybe think carefully about whether you actually share the details of what's discussed with anyone at work. As I said before, they really don't need to know. What "they" (your lead nurse and anyone else at work) don't know, they can't make dismissive hurtful comments about.
Reading back through the comments on this thread I realise that you're getting conflicting advice from different people with some suggestion that you could gain support by discussing it all with work colleagues. I realise that when working in a healthcare setting (as I have done in the past) it can be considered normal to talk about all sorts of details about one's own/one's family's (and everyone else's) health issues. However, it is your choice whether to do this or whether you strive to be private and circumspect. Sharing details with your lead nurse has already made you feel "frightened", "worried", "guilty", "like I should just be getting on with it and not making a fuss
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" Would sharing more details with him/her and others at work just lead to more of these feelings?
If at a later date you use the experience to keep a journal, educate others etc. that's entirely up to you but I really don't see it as part of your remit to do this.
In my opinion, your remit right now is to look after yourself. I hope you manage to formulate a plan for a way forward to help you feel better.