I would love to be able to work. I assumed I would eventually resume my teaching career after after having my children, but it didn't work out that way. I worked full time for a full year, but found it too much physically. I remember wishing my children were in bed, so I could finish the paperwork and preparation, so I too could go to bed. I had to give up for my sake and for everyone else's. I carried on with any part time work and supply teaching that came my way until I was 55 and could claim a very small pension early. The older I got, the more recovery time I needed and l had I had no energy left for a social life. There has been a huge financial implication and for some reason I have been embarrassed and have felt guilty. Only now ( I shall be 60 next month) have I doctor who is keen to get to the bottom of what's going on. Maybe if I had been able to be more assertive, I might have been able to have got more help before. I won't get my state pension until I am 66.