Hi Catty
It's a horrible feeling isn't it - the unease, anxiousness. I myself am 33, and went through a radical hysterectomy 10mths as a result of cervical cancer. Im afraid that I cant really help much in the way of advice or hints regarding your hypertension and the impact all this may have on it however having felt similar things in my first few months post surgery I can let you know what helped for me and maybe in that you can find something that works for you! Its great you are seeing a menopause specialist as this made all the difference to me, currently I am on an oestrogen replacement pill called progynova ( I live in Australia so names of things may be different) and so far that's all Ive had to take, it did take a while, 10-12 weeks, before things started to settle down between the changes in my body, recovering from surgery and not to mention the emotional side of things. I spoke to a nutritionist and my pharmacist and got a really good chewable calcium supplement(caltrate) as obv there is an increased risk of diminished bone density, I also got additional vitamins to help my over all immunity and absorption of calcium, I made sure I was eating a well balanced healthy diet, lots of fresh fruits, vegetables, fish( particularly salmon) and minimised my intake of caffeiene and sugars. All of which helped with over all mood and also helped minimise feelings of edginess, anxiousness etc.
My anxiety kicked in mainly at night for no apparent reason, id feel almost scared, heart beating fast, twitchy etc or when I was facing social situations since my surgery - the "first" conversations, how to handle the things people ask etc - all of which terrified me to begin with. I found that quietening my mind and focusing on my breathing helped. Id literally close my eyes and talk to myself inwardly, calmly repeating little things such as concentrate on listening to your breathing, find a slow steady rhythm, close out all the noise around me, listen to your heartbeat, literally stop thinking and gradually as I got used to doing this it became a lot easier to manage the anxiousness.
Id be lying if I said it takes care of things all the time and everything goes away but it does become more manageable and the best thing I have learnt so far......be selfish! Take care of yourself, take the time you need to heal emotionally and physically. If you feel bad one day, then allow yourself that day, just always try to start afresh the next day. Hold your head high and have faith in yourself and your ability to over come this, after all you have gotten this far.
x