Hi Ladies, I'm new to this forum but hope I can get some reassurance and advice.
I am due to see my gynaecologist tomorrow and terribly afraid of what might be the inevitable next step. I am 50 years old now and started seeing the specialist gynaecologist two years ago. After suffering with severe PMS symptoms, debilitating physical symptoms including, fatigue, flu like symptoms, pelvic pains, depression and felt suicidal every month on the days leading up to my period. After some persuasion my gp eventually referred me to a specialist and the gyneacologist put me on HRT. After two years on Evorel patches and Crinone/progesterone treatment things got slightly better particularly moodwise. At the end of last year, I was put on the Decapeptyl analogue injections to shut down my overies but they made the menopause symptoms worse, so the everol patch was increased to 150mcg. Unfortunatley, I have fibroids and they have now grown into 3 large Fibords which means I have constant backache and very heavy painful periods. My moods and anxiety are starting to get worse, because I am in so much pain all month long.
I don't think the specialist will suggest starting the injections again, because my meno symptoms will get worse and if I am put on a higher does of HRT, my fibroids will just grow even larger.
I feel he will suggest a hysterectomy, which I think is the right thing for me, but I am worried that once I agree to have the op, things will be out of my control and I am also terrified of the complications.
I've left alot out of this post, but as many of you know my story is not unique and it would be easy to fill in the gaps. I have not worked in two years, I'm exhausted, in pain and emotionally drained. I am normally a strong feisty female but i'm just a jibbering wreck and and my children want their Mum back
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I would really welcome some advice - HELP!!!